Tummy Bubblings . . .

About 10 days ago, I made the decision to send off resumes and cover letters for three part-time jobs, still uncertain that I was ready to go back to work. This past Sunday, one of those resumes bore fruit and I was called for an interview tomorrow morning. The job would be perfect for next year. It is just two mornings a week, just enough time for me to get some time away from home and doing something just for myself, but still allowing me to be with my boys a bunch too. Slowly, the nerves have come on and now I have the curious bubbling in my stomach that always accompanies me having to do something I don't feel 100% sure I am capable of doing.

Even though I believe that I am a highly capable teacher and am generally am able to express myself verbally (often talking too much), when I am on an interview, I get terribly nervous and so tongue-tied I find it very difficult to express myself. But I have been on a number of job interviews for public schools and can fairly easily figure out what kinds of questions they will ask at the interview. But this job is for a cooperative preschool and I haven't a clue what they will be asking me there.

I am trying to just let go of the nervousness and to just relax so I can be myself at the interview, but that is easier said than done. At it's core, a job interview is a situation where you are being compared to a set of parameters that are often undisclosed to you. I don't know a single person who feels comfortable being measured thus, and I certainly fear being found wanting.  So, we shall just see how the interview goes and the following week's storytime interview.